Somehow July feels like years ago. But I can't believe it's already August. Does that happen to you? It's a weird, recent phenomenon of mine: unbelieving that "time" has past so quickly while also feeling as though that "time" was years ago.
Flying time, twirling like a vulture in the blue.
July was a whirlwind of emotions that have begun to streamline as we've spun into August. My time at Theatre By The Sea - with their production of "Annie" - was the hardest and best experience I've had in a long time.
This was the first show where I was dog-handling as well as performing in the ensemble. Now, I haven't performed in a full scale musical since "The Producers" two years ago... I was terrified and ecstatic all at once. I fell back into rehearsal mode and was reminded me why I'm in this fields; my love of performing and the camaraderie of show-people sparked a super-nova within me. There were the little moments throughout the show (a short jump sequence as a sailor in NYC, singing Ab's in Tomorrow Reprise, a quick comic exit with Ms. Hannigan) that brought life to the dormant actor within my varied soul.
Of course I could not forget the constant magic that is working with animals onstage. Macy truly is a special soul. With a past that would haunt any animal, Macy has risen from ashes to be one of Bill's stars. Her love and trusting outlook is something I strive for in my own life. We had 4 different Annies in a 6 week process, which is unheard of and could have been disastrous for Macy. But she rose above, rising to the occasion like a true professional.
Amidst all the craziness that was this production, I reverted back to an over-analytical, fearful individual: second-guessing choices, feeling lost - similar to that of an addict who begins abusing again. I am able to stand here now and acknowledge these behaviors (that are still flaring up from time to time), while having amazing individuals around me who help me snap out of this destructive mode. And to them, I am too grateful (if that's even possible).
I cannot wait to bring my now packed tool-belt with me to my next dog-handling gig. Next up is a "Legally Blonde" out in Long Beach, CA with Frankie for the fall, then to Jupiter, FL for the winter with Macy for another "Annie" (that I will get to perform in as well).
This must all be a dream I'm living: so grateful.
Dearest Schuyler,
ReplyDeleteWhat a pleasure it was to meet you this summer. You were always so kind to the "orphans" and your love and passion for your work radiated from those beautiful, twinkling eyes. It is no wonder that you have such a way with the animals you work with. It is easy to want to get to know you.
As an artist it is always difficult not to fall into the trap of second guessing and being unkind to yourself but remember that everything you bring to that stage and the work that you do with the animals is what feeds your soul. So with every moment that you doubt, just know that there are those of us in the audience that see that magic that you bring to a performance.
Best of luck in your future endeavors and I look forward to following your blog.
Always,
Millie (and Taylor xo)
Hi there Schuyler!
ReplyDeleteWe were truly blessed to have the opportunity for Amelia to get to work with you and Macy. I know it is the nature of a performer to second-guess, but you must trust and believe in yourself, always. You are so gifted at what you do, both as a performer and as an animal handler. I loved watching you each night performing- there is a twinkle in your eye that is easy to spot from the first row to the back of the house. At The Cabaret, your songs brought a tear to my eyes... Your voice is spectacular... and the emotion pours out of you.. You made me care. With Macy, it is as if you are an extension of her, a voice for her.. Amelia learned so much working with you and with Macy. I do hope our paths cross again. Amelia LOVES the dogs I think more than being Annie... One of these days we plan to visit both Macy & Oliver, and hopefully get to see you and Bill as well. Best of luck to you on your next endeavours, please keep in touch.. :)
XOXO,
Rose & Amelia